hello!

how are you? a lot of the posts are friends-only here, so if you really want to peel back my skin and dive inside my DEEPEST AND DARKEST EMOTIONS (as if such things exist), have a pleasant conversation with me and we will get along.

 

100 themes

throughout my journal i'll be doing a 100 themes thing, which basically involves me drawing something regarding one of the themes on a random day; each post is linked to.
 

( click here, broheim. )

SO RONERY

these recent entries have been hella short. also, total mileage for this week: 14.4
i want to throw up everywhere FOREVER. I WANT MY PHYSICAL BEING TO MATCH MY EMOTIONAL BEING: EMPTY.

faceplant on cement smash ivory teeth into crumbs sell to toothfairy become millionaire

WAT

i am actually so satisfied with myself right now. HNNNGHHHGHGHHH-

also, N> hair cut.

... FOUR FINGERS THICK
RIPPED ME IN HALF
AND NOW I'M DEAD

please sing the above to hark! the herald angels sing. kelly and i can be a deadly lyrical duo.

finished 3.2 miles today. HOLY SHIT TOMORROW'S FRIDAY

nik: how many stories do you have to fall to commit suicide?
candace: just jump off of the world trade centre...
nik: GOOD LUCK.

alek says:
i wish i had ovaries ;_;
c&ace says:
i like mine
alek says:
i bet they're pretty
c&ace says:
that is by far the creepiest thing anyone has ever said to me

AFTER FIVE YEARS, YOU CAN STILL FREAK ME OUT, BRO. never mind the fact that i completely detest you.

for some god awful reason i joined the 100 mile club with vanessa. this means that in 12 weeks, i will have run >100 miles. not that i mind running, but i am feeling particularly stressed and doubtful of myself this week. GET OVER IT BITCH HOLY FUCK YOU PUSSY. that's better.

yesterday i ran 3.14 miles (i was getting onto three miles and i was like, "fuck, i love pi") and today vanessa and i took to the rainy streets and completed 1.5. it's funny because before yesterday, it'd been a good... two months since i'd ran seriously. after fan expo i kind of just stopped doing everything because of school and boredom, but everytime i come back, i come back stronger and harder. what do i get out of this 100 mile bullshit? a t-shirt and some recognition at the athletic banquet. LOL, candace + sports.. this equation has never been attempted by man (except for that volleyball stint in grade 7-9).

during the summer when i'd split my day into running and FFXI, i never breached the 3 mile mark. SO PROUD.

my to do list is as follows:
- english enrichment (finish this weekend)
- english essay (rough draft this weekend)
- art essay (rough draft this weekend... fuck, conflicting)
- sketchbook (get pencil sketch/character development done)

despite all of this, i am more retarded, and tired, and happy than i have been for a long time. mmmmmmm

"YES YES beating infants in a potato sack with a chain saw!!! Eyyyyyyyyyyahhhgggh "

"sounds like freaky dirty gore dripping sex"

i am so proud that i picked emily haines's voice out of a crystal method track.

(ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ Terry says:
yes
just imagine they changed every actor in the office but they looked almost exactly the same but not
think about it
with your BRAIN
MOTHERBRAIN
c&ace says:
LMAO
wats a matherbran
(ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ Terry says:
an experimental crop at best
at worst THE ULTIMATE LAXATIVE!
matherbran flakes
c&ace says:
i need to write a short story based on this conversation
or at the very least photoshop a box of matherbran cereal

i feel like talking, but not like being annoying.. so i'm just going to express useless dialogue here.

HOLY FUCK I OWN AT SPELLSEEKER ON NEOPETS. 20 combo = 54000 points. YES BITCH.

ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ Terry says:
havfo sho
c&ace says:
what the fuck did you just say LMAO
(ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ Terry says:
that's what I was wondering
man I luvs xp
and I luuuvs comety!
c&ace says:
did you by any chance lick a piece of paper with a colourful picture on it?
(ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ Terry says:
scratch and sniff they call it
scratch and eat I use it

when the college crunch comes and i am limited in terms of food, i have decided that i can live off of peanut butter, eggs, tea and cereal. forever. occasionally pizza as an exotic treat.. fuck this year is going to fly by.

lately i've been doing a lot of anatomical studies in art with alison. i improved so hard.
oh musculature, i love you almost as much as my morbid fascination with teeth and ribs allows.

a few days ago i caught up with an old MS/RO friend who mentioned his dog murphy and how he's still kicking. i've known this guy for at least five years, and the fact that his dog is some surviving artifact on his way out makes me realize that i have been alive for a very long time. sure, compare my insignificant life span of sixteen years to a man of eighty and i would be better off with a zipper installed over my oral orifice, but for that moment i felt like i was some stagnant object in time. i was talking to kelly about why i like math (which apparently makes me weird). it's entirely logical and if you're doing it right, it always makes sense. when you're living in a world where everything is tentative, based on subjective emotions and movement, it's nice to have something that will always be the same.

i am also convinced that my english teacher adores me. i began an assignment with,



and she gave me 100%. this is part of my final exam.. the fuck. i connected pygmalion, a play about gender roles and classism, to morality in online activity. LOOOOOL scammer4lyfe, wool over your eyes.

eenie meenie miney mo
catch a jap by the toe
if he hollers make him say
i surrender USA!!

these last two entries probably make me look like a meat loving americunt. i should be working but i have no motivation.

sheridan open house this weekend! i wish devyn could come.. i'm actually getting my father involved in the planning of my future as he's tagging along and providing a drive to professor-oakville. while on that topic, my mother didn't take the idea of me moving out too well. there was a massive shitstorm argument a few days ago LOLmaternalinstincts.

my life needs moar datsik... and ty. i am fond of him and what is this?

so.. has anyone really be far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like? that's what i thought.

x-posted from facebook


pretty much summarizes my feelings towards sanctimonious vegetarian prats who think that their primitive eating habits put them above the rest of our meat loving society. personally, i'm not much of a carnivore and i can be finicky with meat. BUT REALLY, WHO GIVES A FUCK? unless you're breeding them as pets, to be loved and adequately cared for, they are not self aware, and food is a necessity. you can only live off of soybeans and peanut butter for so long, dickwads.

this concludes your morning rage session.. i think i'll have bacon for breakfast.

i have developed a new fondness for male torso studies. UGHHNNN SHOULDERS I MUST DRAW YOU

you are not the paper in your wallet

IN EARTHBOUND, I NAMED THE CHARACTERS FARTE, DARLA, SPANKY AND M SCOTT. MY FAVOURITE FOOD? DICKS N POO.

AWWWW YEAH.

my misanthropy is getting the better of me today... it usually gets aggravated when i am forced to associate with indirect braggarts who feel that their frivolous lives are horrible. kindly shut the fuck up and get out of my life.

and why do i feel happy for somebody?

OVERCOMING APATHY GET.

Tom- says:
how do you pick up a jewish girl in germany?
c&ace says:
dunno
Tom- says:
with a broom and dust pan

sure is nazi in here.

but the price for his gift was solitude.
where are you going, all alone like a hangman?

feeling the crunch of unavoidable deadlines. OKAY! fun fact of the day about candace taylor: when i am nervous or stressed, i like to make lists to feign a sense of control.

1. finish sketchbook assignment
> artist's statement

2. complete english enrichment bullshit
> print notes, decide on format and do that shit up

3. buy more tea- you are out.

i'm not really a neo-nazi of any sort.

I BARELY GET TIRED, I'M RARELY INSPIRED AND YOU ACCOMPLISH IN A WEEK WHAT I'M DAILY REQUIRED

i am 12 and what is this?