hello!

how are you? a lot of the posts are friends-only here, so if you really want to peel back my skin and dive inside my DEEPEST AND DARKEST EMOTIONS (as if such things exist), have a pleasant conversation with me and we will get along.

 

100 themes

throughout my journal i'll be doing a 100 themes thing, which basically involves me drawing something regarding one of the themes on a random day; each post is linked to.
 

( click here, broheim. )

je voudrais dormir maintenant parce que j'ai arrivé du travail seulement il y a un heur.. je ne peux pas dire que j'aime travailler LOL. tu peux m'appeler paresseuse - je préférerais jouer TF2 ou un truc comme ça au lieu de perdre mes temps.

tout je aimerais faire ce soir... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ty me manque.

toujours. wtf ._.

le band son de spawn est seXXXy

no one is immune to the wrath of nadia taylor, not even small children and animals.

80 miles GET! i'm so glad i've committed myself to some form of movement for this long... not porking out like i would normally this time of year. also the once common desire to starve myself has dwindled. THIS IS GOOD.

i've started working at a pizza place with my sister, i guess it's all right, although the boss apparently has a mean streak. i just want money to buy new clothes... like a backpack.. or new panties. that would be a fucking treat.

( lalala... )

spent the night with my soul rotting into a mattress.

marla's philosophy of life is that she might die at any moment. the tragedy, she said, was that she didn't.

  


i accidentally my entire hair
devyn is here :D:D:D:D

i think if 4chan were a person, i'd marry it. with 4chan i am never alone and always distracted in one way or another.

i've been playing more TF2 lately (finally...). i've developed a fondness for sniping and playing as solly, because blowing shit up is AWESOME.
( 2O1O )

my resolution this year is to be a bigger fucking skank and ruin my life by adopting a coke, and eventually crack addiction. then i'll OD on my mom's pills before hanging myself, just to make sure i don't have to endure another miserable year.

actually i don't know. enough happened in 2009 though..

dad bought us an assload of beer and vodka for tonight. mission: get drunk off my ass and enjoy momentary satisfaction while being alone.

fucker

it is nearly midnight. i am making keaton's mask from LoZ... i wish every day could be like this, sleeping until 4pm, playing video games and making random crap.

it's gotten to the point where when i close my eyes, i see coloured blocks and i want to switch them around, dropping chains on my opponent until they crumble.

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh ... And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you so quite new

- ee cummings

a few nights ago i had a dream where i was undergoing some dental surgery, and for some reason i took pliers and ripped out three of my adjacent lower teeth - i'm positive it was three. i guess i thought i was helping the procedure, but the doctor told me that i shouldn't have done it. the night before christmas i dreamt i was taking the bus with ty to go to some snowy field... i hope my wisdom teeth come out properly so i can make a necklace out of them - you can't do anything with boney fragments.

christmas was good - my mom made a shitton of food and i played a lot of video games. tetris attack is rage inducing. i learned most of dante's song from FMA on piano. :D

the first person i killed was my wife. she was nagging me about something and without meaning to, i chopped her to pieces. but when i saw how finely i could slice her, i wanted more. to reduce people to their most basic building blocks, and i wanted everyone to see...

i am replaying silent hill: homecoming... hopefully i'll have more shit saved up to make the game easier. this is achieved by RUNNING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING. i'm stuck at this part with 3 schisms that keep deflecting my bullets, then i have to rape siam. not fun :(

slept for 14 hours last night. YES

i fall in love too easily
i fall in love too terribly hard
for love to ever last

interesting question, plus i am too wired to go to sleep so i'd might as well write. if this is to be based upon my hotmail inbox, we have the following:

spam from korean fashion sites
livejournal e-mails (comments & friend requests)
FFXI newsletters

to be honest, i don't do a lot of incriminating things in tangible formats. i don't keep much stuff hidden, aside from my moments of self-doubt and insecurity, so nothing i do should come across as surprising. a lot of my recent thoughts i haven't bothered to write down, either, just because it's pleasant keeping things to myself. if anything my nerd status would only become further cemented and i would look lame. then again if the individual didn't know about my LJ (which i'm not sure a lot of my friends do unless they visit my dA) then they'd have plenty of reading to do regarding a weird teenage girl whose father dreams about giant leeches.

dasboutit. good night

wake the fuck up

poor nick, what a hole he's fallen into.
last night he had a dream that he was pulling needles out of his stomach
taken out on a gurney.

there is a gun to my head that is screaming, "work harder"

"he just seemed like a normal DUDE!" - nik regarding my brother
"i'm immortal now, i feel like edward bloom!" - vanessa

worst last words? THAT TASTES AWESOME!

if i had super powers, i'd want to be able to go comatose at any time, and while i was unconscious, i'd want all of my work to be completed. i just want to bank my sleep and be awake for days on end... playing final fantasy XI... PLEASE DON'T DRAG ME BACK TO VANA'DIEL YOU NOSTALGIC FUCK. FINARU FANTAGY TILL I DIE.

i need something visible to obsess over.

if i could sleep forever
i could forget about everything

yes it does feel good to be dating the unofficial 5th best donkey kong NES player in the world. :D

FINALLY got some eye make up remover. no more of this, "sup, i'm three day old mascara and i'm going to appear in your eye gunk" shit.

my workload has been hella intense lately, but i've managed to flatten english out. art is still nagging me with an essay and sketchbook project, which is difficult to manage when i have ideas for the best christmas gifts ever. ;) my friends have no idea what's coming LOHLOHLOHL.

In the end the Party would announce that two and two made five, and you would have to believe it.

it appears to be the first of december, C'MON WINTER BREAK. the thing is, i'm a lazy fuck and all of my courses have in-class exams, meaning that i get an entire week off on top of my vacation. next semester is still haunting me. well, partial lie there. at least i have nik and vanessa in my worst class, math. even though i have a strange fondness for numbers, i never apply myself.

you should have seen how much ass i kicked in spellseeker this morning - sequence of 31 numbers, fucker.

i skipped english and finished my enrichment. almost done my english essay.. SO GLAD TO BE GETTING THIS OFF OF MY PLATE. DAY OFF TOMORROW, RUN A MILLION MILES TONIGHT. EAT GRILLED CHEESE, HUG GRANDPA, TAKE NAP IN IRON MAN SHEETS (DEVYN)